Around about this time of year, I start to get pretty exhausted with all the making, cooking, cleaning and giving. Instead of the crochet hook, I wield the hockey laced tightener:
I have fantasies involving my home being clean, quiet and empty that get more involved as the season progresses. Before Christmas, I imagined myself sitting in My Chair quietly sipping a cup of tea as my children happily did something not involving fighting. Now, as New Years approaches, the fantasy has morphed to me barricaded in a fabulous studio (which bears no resemblance to my bedroom sewing area) reupholstering My Chair. Funny, I never have thought about that before. (Is upholstery in my future?)
Maybe that's one reason my New Year's resolutions can be pretty involved; after a couple of weeks of (relative) selflessness, I can get quite imaginative about what I wish I was doing instead.
Also, I must say that blogging has facilitated Knowing Thyself . One thing that has come to my attention (some of my readers helped me a bit with this revelation) is that I can get a wee bit "intense." (Or was that a polite way of saying obsessive?) Like that cornbread recipe? What was with that three different types of corn and whipping the egg whites? Wasn't that supposed to be a one-time thing the time I had no cornmeal? I made it tonight with the regular recipe (plus some leftover yolks) and it was lovely. I made vegetarian chili without onions and no one noticed. I heard no comments that it was "too beefy" or that " the smell made me nauseous."
Or those labor-intensive mittens. If I am so damn fussy maybe I should just be making things for my own fussy self.
So here goes to being a bit more selfish in the New Year. (With a nod of my head to the Selfish Seamstress, who has been an inspiration.) I vow to spend a little less time getting "intense" about some things (things I do for other people) and spending a little more time and energy doing other things (things that I do for myself).So, Happy New Year, and a special, mom-assisted (unselfishly mom-assisted), silk-screen message to you, the readers, designed by the eldest son.